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I couldn't figure out why I've felt like something was off today until I looked at the calendar.

Oh, yeah.  Ash Wednesday.  For the first time in my life, I won't be quizzed on what I'm giving up for Lent, or get scolded for joking "Catholicism."  Ouch.

I talked to Granma a while this morning (and wondered if I shouldn't be talking to my shrink about the amount of times a week I talk to an urn the size of a plastic Easter egg) and promised I'd play nice with mother, Great-aunt Aggie, and Steph for the next 40 days, but I might need help.

And I thought the year that I gave up chocolate AND caffeine looked bleak.

That was quite a 40 days.  Grandpa was exempt, because he hadn't joined the Church yet.  Instead, he got to live with his wife, daughter, and 2 granddaughters detoxing from sugar and caffeine...AT THE SAME TIME.

Who really suffered there?

This angst strikes me every year, despite the fact I left the Church long ago.  I'm not even sure it is religious so much as missing family and the way the holidays used to mark our years.  I don't have that any more.

And, for all that's a good thing, I actually found myself getting a little jealous of my little sister today.  She posted on FB about how there is a Torrid opening up in the "big" mall the next town over, and she and mother were going to have a "girls day" after payday.  She invited friends along, and it's going to be so much fun and they're going to lunch and and and...

I sulked in front of the computer for a good five minutes.

Thankfully, I took a step back and realized my issue was mainly the fact that I haven't done a girls day in forever.  And, much as I claim to hate malls, I love window shopping.  Always have.  Doesn't really matter where.  I just like LOOKING at stuff.

In more cheerful news, I think I'm on my way to becoming "that neighbor."  I got cute black cat and bat window clings for the screen door for Halloween...and just left them up.  (A witch needs a familiar, and since I'm allergic to cats....)  Last week, I found lady bugs with hearts and little red, pink, and white hearts.  So I just put those up as well.

The spousebeast didn't even notice until I pointed it out and said "Just wait until March and the shamrocks come out."

He just shook his head and said "At least you don't decorate a tree in the front yard every holiday."

He doesn't quite get it.  THAT requires changing out ornaments.  This just means adding stuff.  :)  Although I may take everything down for Pride and completely re-do the door.  I wonder where I can get rainbow window clings?  If I can find some I like, I'll just leave those up year 'round.

Hey, since our apartment is a little hard to find, that would insure we wouldn't be missed, right?

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grlicnotgmblin
Feb. 10th, 2016 10:00 pm (UTC)
I'm not even sure it is religious so much as missing family and the way the holidays used to mark our years. I don't have that any more.

I miss this about my family too. Church was always a part in some way. We used to celebrate holidays and birthdays FOR REAL. Now, it's a miracle if we see family once per year. :(

Also, re: sister's Facebook post... I'm certain that 90% of what people post on FB isn't even real. Don't be too jealous. I'm sure it's not all sunshine and lollypops. My sister used to pull that crap on me too. Jerks!
mac_arthur_park
Feb. 11th, 2016 04:20 pm (UTC)
We used to do church and big family meals on holidays. I REALLY miss the times in the kitchen when I would lay low, make the fruit salad, and let the adults bicker around me.

My sister's post is probably truthful. It just means mom is off her meds again and is playing Lady Bountiful. And Steph is trying to make the best of the fact that she is 41 and living with her mother and creepy stepfather in a house that reeks of cat piss.

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