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Bleh.  Crappy night's sleep.  Mother issue dreams.  I hate them in general, but they really get under my skin when they turn physical.

I only got in a physical altercation with my mother once (after a lifetime of being backhanded by her).  It was NYE in freshman (or was it sophomore?) year of college, and she was going on and on and on about what a piece of shit my then-boyfriend was, how I'd regret being with him, etc etc etc.  I slapped her; she threw a glass of wine in my face.  I go to the kitchen to get away from her; she follows.  I ended up knocking her across the kitchen.

That was the last time she ever raised a hand to me.  But evidently, I still have a lot of barely repressed anger.

Sadly, she was actually right about the ex.  And he was right about her (that she is a lying, manipulative narcissist with a mean streak a mile wide).

I should have walked away from both of them at 19.  Well, hindsight and all that.

I'm going to go read my super trashy supernatural romance novel to recover.  I found it at our Little Free Library.  I think that's where those novels go to die.  And this one will be going right straight back into circulation when I'm done.

happy Wednesday, y'all!


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Mar. 2nd, 2016 03:53 pm (UTC)
sometimes a trashy novel is the best therapy!
Mar. 2nd, 2016 04:25 pm (UTC)
I have a friend who should have walked away from her parents too. I can only imagine the turmoil. I'm sorry. :/ Hang in there! And yes, trashy books rule for getting through stuff.
Mar. 2nd, 2016 04:57 pm (UTC)
Parent issues ...

Heavy stuff, I know. Enjoy that trashy book for a nice distraction. I should really check out this bookshelf of my flat mate's.
Mar. 2nd, 2016 05:32 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear that. Nightmares are the worst. I'm still haunted by one about my grandmother that I had like three years ago.

It sounds like you did get away from both of them! Abusive relationships aren't easy or logical. People are way too victim blamey these days.

I hope you're enjoying your novel and can get back in a good space.

Used bookstores are the best! Try some old Virginia Henley. She is dirrty!
Mar. 2nd, 2016 05:47 pm (UTC)
Glad you were finally able to break free. That's rough. AW
Mar. 2nd, 2016 06:04 pm (UTC)
I know someone who should've done the same thing to her mom too

Glad you were able to break free from her
Mar. 2nd, 2016 08:24 pm (UTC)
*hugs and hot cocoa*
Mar. 2nd, 2016 10:18 pm (UTC)
I think the last time my Mom hit me was when I was about 15 or so. I told her if she ever did it again, I'd put her on the floor.

I flinched and covered my head for years, if someone moved too fast near me.
Mar. 3rd, 2016 10:15 am (UTC)
I understand how you feel. My mother and I had many physical altercations as well... I remember my mom having beautiful nails and the lovely crescent scabs they gave me sometimes...
Mar. 3rd, 2016 03:13 pm (UTC)
I still remember one time, I think I was in HS. The Maternal Unit and I were having a heated discussion about something (I forget what, this was 30 yrs ago). I went into the kitchen to A, get away from her, and B, make myself a sandwich; I was done with the "discussion." She wasn't. She followed me into the kitchen. I could see, out of the corner of my eye, that she was reaching out to try and pull on my hair, so I'd pay more attn to her (as if). She grabbed on to my hair, and I just bent my head in the direction of her pulling, until my cheek was parallel to my shoulder. I never felt any pain at all, and she also didn't appreciate the fact I was laughing. She never tried to get physical again with me after that.
Mar. 3rd, 2016 08:52 pm (UTC)
Repressed anger is a bitch. This is something I personally know something about; sadly. Yes of course, working through the issues is the best thing to do, but who the ___ wants to do that? It's damn hard work.

In the meantime, avoid trigger situations, cultivate a support network, spend time with people you like and most importantly sit down and make a nice hot cup of tea ;-)
Mar. 8th, 2016 07:31 pm (UTC)
Hoorah for brain candy / trashy novels!
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