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I ended up getting called in to help run the damned training yesterday.

While it is important knowledge to have, seeing a film that involved someone acting how a resident who has been raped might react to diapering/showering/being taken to the toilet...let's just say it tripped damn near every trigger I have and the only thing that kept me from running from the room is my even bigger fear of calling attention to myself.  (When my PTSD gets hold of me, I need to be invisible)  I just sat there in silence, tears running down my face, trying to remember how to breathe.

Afterwards, I took the instructor aside.  I told her how potentially triggering portions of the video were, and there needed to at least be a warning, and really should be an option to READ the material instead of watching it.  I was honest about my reaction, and how it could have been MUCH worse if I didn't have coping mechanisms in place, and that we don't know how many people on staff have similar issues.

Blown. The.  Fuck.  Off.

"It's a $200 video series."  (So!?!?!?)  "I think I said that some of the material would be challenging."  (Uh, no you didn't.  And that is NOT the same thing as a content/trigger warning)  "There's no written content, and people can't just opt out."  (Not asking to opt out.  Asking for an alternative.  And if this video series is so damned expensive, why is there no supplementary printed material?)  "You know, you could have just left the room."


After the staff meeting today, I'm going to go to the break room, write down the number for CORPORATE'S HR hotline, and burn some shit down.

Did I mention that my favorite grocery store is hiring for $3 more an hour than I'm making now?  Did I mention that that's looking really attractive right now?

Hell, things have gotten so bad around there that Kent is interviewing at Noodles & Co. on Thursday for a shift manager position.  (Again, it pays more.  See how valued the people who take care of our elders are?).

If he strands me at Happy Acres, I'm gonna kick his ass six ways from Sunday.  Okay, I won't....but he will be responsible for every odious household chore forever.


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Mar. 15th, 2017 12:25 pm (UTC)
Go for the grocery store job and eventually, do some volunteering at happy acres later! I have learned that it is much better for my mental wellbeing when I earn my money with something where I am not emotionally overinvolved and spend some free time instead to do good things for people. Because that way I can chose exactly what I want to do and how long, instead of being told off for spending too much time with somebody by those who pay me.
Mar. 15th, 2017 01:56 pm (UTC)
So sorry they put you through that. Whatchawannabet that, if you had left the room, you would have gotten some sort of demerit for "failing to complete the training" or somesuch?

*Big hugs*
Mar. 15th, 2017 03:11 pm (UTC)
wow, that's seriously messed up. and it sounds like they depend on people who are good to feel too guilty to leave.
I'm so sorry. =(
Mar. 15th, 2017 03:19 pm (UTC)

Go to the grocery store.

Mar. 15th, 2017 03:47 pm (UTC)
What a pile of crap! I'd be fuming if I were you. I hope you get HR to listen.

I don't think anyone would blame you in the slightest if you took a grocery store job. Caregivers are paid far too little.
Mar. 15th, 2017 05:25 pm (UTC)
Screw them, go work at the grocery store. You'll get first crack at all the sell-by dated veggies and meat, just THINK of all the cool stuff you could cook.
Mar. 15th, 2017 05:52 pm (UTC)
I have that same triggered response from commercials. Back when the Boston Marathon was bombed, I was so happy that some news outlet reported that the video from that event was triggering PTSD. Sensationalism has taken hold, and it is believed that humans won't "listen" unless their emotions are yanked, and that is dangerous not only for those of us who suffer, but for the general populace who I believe are having to survive the attacks from triggered individuals who do not have coping mechanisms in place.

I hope you find resolution.
Mar. 15th, 2017 08:42 pm (UTC)
Oh absolutely light up corporate's HR desk! Good gods. And I'm voting for applying at the grocery store too. If you're getting more negative than positive out of this job, you need to be somewhere else.
Mar. 15th, 2017 11:10 pm (UTC)
Oh, that "$200" thing brings back memories. None good.

Just because a thing is expensive doesn't make it useful, for fuck's sake.

I think I'd go for the grocery store. Especially if they have an employee discount.
Mar. 15th, 2017 11:43 pm (UTC)
Wow...that's total bullshit.

I would totally go work at Trader Joe's right now if I could get paid what I get paid now in my office job. No joke. Bagging groceries sounds like a dream job sometimes.
Mar. 16th, 2017 12:36 am (UTC)
Ugh ugh ugh. I'm sorry. :(

Noodles and Company is a nice group to work for. The Small One's partner used to be a shift manager and he loved it. :)
Mar. 16th, 2017 01:54 am (UTC)
File a complaint.

Again, it pays more. See how valued the people who take care of our elders are?

This. Apply for other jobs. It is a shame.
Mar. 16th, 2017 02:51 am (UTC)

Go directly to the grocery store and apply there. I can't imagine anything at a grocery store that will require you sitting through a mindfuck like that.

Mar. 16th, 2017 03:30 am (UTC)
Adding my voice to the choir. If your favorite grocery store is hiring, I say go for it! The fact that instructor seemed to be so blase about triggers and trigger warnings is a red flag. I'm so glad you're going to contact HR's hotline and at least report it.
Mar. 16th, 2017 09:26 am (UTC)
i can see how triggering that can be.

Would you be thinking about a different career? It seems you are attached to the patients there, but with the inconsistency of your coworkers, I can understand why the grocery store would be enticing.
Mar. 18th, 2017 03:59 pm (UTC)
Did you contact HR
if nothing else, copy every post you have made since you started there and send it to them
ummm - edit out the LJ stuff, as they do not need to know that
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